Yesterday was a good day because I received a text from one of my closest friend. I often refer her as my angel because of the way we met. We have been friend for a number of years now and I had not heard from her since the beginning of the year so when I saw her text, tears came rolling down my cheeks as I honestly thought she had finally forgotten about me since we live away from each other. And she is such a precious friend…
She had no idea about the great job I had then lost, about the great boyfriend I had then lost, that I had to move out of my little mansion to a house where my fridge canâ€™t even pass through the doors so it has to stay on the patioâ€¦ and so on so onâ€¦
But her main worry was the fact that I was in Sydney, by myself. She actually offered to pay for my ticket to fly me back home lol she is a sweetheart 🙂
I explained to her what had happened since the last time I saw her and that being in Sydney was probably the break I needed to get my life sorted, time to think about myself and analyse everything that had happened. Of course third party opinions are always welcome 🙂
On Sunday night, Paul said to me that I was not giving away anything and was probably sending out the wrong message when going on a dateâ€¦ Well that explains a lot now!!! And my Angel agreed: â€œI have seen you argued with Patrick (ex-husband) 100s of time but you never actually expressed how you feltâ€¦ I am probably the only person to whom you will express your feelings, I have never seen you talk to anyone else like you talk to me, so how are they supposed to know how you feel if you donâ€™t actually say it?â€ Ok, point taken.
From a conversation with a guy on msn, he said that maybe guys were intimidated by me. And yes I also used to think that and as my personal message at some point on msn I was using words from a Veronicasâ€™ song: â€œDonâ€™t try to hate me coz am so popular. Most guys I dated got intimidated so now I date up.â€
Now I actually think that I am the one who is actually intimidated especially if I like the guyâ€¦ and although I am not entirely sure but I think that is what happened with Mr Navy Guyâ€¦ 🙁
It is not an unbreakable barrier though as for instance I would not have gone out with Chris if he had not made the first move. Not that there was anything wrong with him but i do know myself -sometimes… lol Of course I still need some sort of connection for anything to happen further and I donâ€™t know if he just took a chance with me thinking I might slap him or he just knew that I would positively respondâ€¦ and am glad he did…
It’s quite normal really of all your friends there is someones you are more confident to talk with. I have one as well and she moved to dubai with her 2 children and I felt sad because it would mean we could not see each other often liked we used to. We are friends from my elementary years up to now and we have fun memories together. well searching for a partner in life is not easy and if you found them its not easy to keep them either so.. just hope for the best.
I have a couple of friends that are like “your angel”, one in particular is a friend I have that moved to Florida from Texas, and I never get to see him. We get to occasionally talk, and when we do talk it’s for a good hour or two (and believe me I don’t talk on the phone, I hate talking on the phone).
As for the guy thing, I would have to agree that moving somewhere like you did might help, but who knows really, only time will tell.
Everyone gets a little intimidated by the opposite sex occasionally (especially if they are very attractive :P)